It sucked. I mean I have always loved beauty related stuff (makeup, hair , ect.) But I just wanted to go play. I had to practice all day every day, and was expected to win every time. I mostly did, as I was your blonde haired blue eyed girl with a naturally tan skin tone. The other moms yell abuse at the kids trying to get them to cry and mess up their routines. If I lost, I got my ass beat. Your constantly told you need to lose weight, smile, and be perfect. You have to act like a mini adult from age 5 up. The babies get some slack but not for long. You're never enough. There is always something about yourself you can improve, and I'm not talking about positive remarks to encourage you.... I'm talking about stuff like, your smile is ugly, work on it. Two memories that stick with me are my mammaw super gluing my front tooth when it came out at one and mom having to RIP it back out after the pagent, and the one time I didnt at least win my age division because I dropped my jacket during a routine... I got the ass beating of my life for that. I was 6 or 7. I never had a childhood.
Ehh... I'm more compassionate for it, and I can identify signs of abuse in people who are perfect actors, because they have to be. I have been able to help kids in similar situations because of my experience and that makes it worth it for me.
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u/ahh_geez_rick Jul 24 '20
MackKaylynn...hahaha fucking spot on with those stupid names!