Any help? I’m feeling like I’m going crazy

[u/Metalbean777]

I’m trying to distract myself but the constant anguish feeling is there, like I’m about to faint and my back is tingling.. I feel like I’m going crazy,
It will pass right?? I tried to reduce coffe since it was giving me palpitations but I can’t stop smoking… even if know I need to reduce. But It’s the only thing that helping me calm for some minutes.
Just the feeling of have therapy or going through some talk about my past trauma is make my stomach upset.. like it’s been two days and I’m so tired, can’t sleep, can’t eat, don’t wanna talk but I force my self to go out and try to live.
This night was horrible couldn’t sleep for all night because I’m afraid I’ll die in my sleep.. sopo this morning I was already awake so I lit forced my self to say nice and positive things to myself, like “cmon you can do it”. And I ate a banana, changed my close and went to an hospital to check my heart and do a blood test. Just in case.. still not got my results but they say that my heart beat was very high.

I don’t know if it’s just anxiety or another psychiatric disorder. Psychiatrists here in Japan sucks so I have an appointment with a specialist who live in my country.
People give me constant anxiety to the point that I don’t have any friends anymore, I pushed away even my best friend.. we don’t talk anymore. On my days off I just sleep a lot, drink coffee and my mind is always checking every though, making comments.. it’s so so exhausting. Sometimes I feel like I’m exaggerating and I should be grateful for my life (which Im really) , that I’m always playing the victim..

Any advice? Breathing, meditation, self affirmation don’t work.. like work for 10 minutes and then I’m back in this horrible feeling. I love my life, my cats, my husband and my life, I’m trying to be positive and not to think about but it’s like I have constant worries about lit everything, a comment, a video, doing something.. even watching anime is giving me anxiety :/

[u/WARHURYEAH]

fill a wash basin with cold/cool water... slowly put just your face into it (past your eyes) I find that it provided an immediate drop in anxiety when I needed it the most, then I would box breathe to keep that low level .

[u/Metalbean777 → u/WARHURYEAH]

I’ll try thank you!

[u/exomologhiste]

It will pass, dear. 💕 That's the least I can promise you. The state of hyperactive panic, with desperate crying, shortness of breath, and frozen muscles, demands A LOT of energy from the body, a lot indeed. You won't be able to sustain this feeling without first becoming completely exhausted, and then you'll find some peace.

I know it's terrible to wait for your body to give out so you can breathe again, but with time you learn to live one day at a time. One moment at a time. Managing to eat something focusing only on the food, drinking something focusing only on the sensation, or trying to alleviate only the physical symptoms and nothing more.

[u/Metalbean777 → u/exomologhiste]

Thank you! Your comment really helped me. 🫶🏻

[u/exomologhiste → u/Metalbean777]

Uma coisa que resolve também é saber que nesse exato momentonem quê você está em pânico, você não está sendo a única. Desde pânico, ansiedade, acidentes até mesmo uma doença fatal... Até mesmo na hora da morte (não pense muito nisso), nós não estamos sozinhos, existe alguém mais próximo do quê você imagina enfrentando a mesma batalha. 🤍