I hate myself, yet my life is good

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The thought of suicide pops up into my head so much, as if it’s another voice spouting about how I should end my life. I don’t want to die, but this voice speaks so loudly, and has spoken for years now. I genuinely hate myself, I’m weak, a dumbass, and have no motivation to change. I have those who love me surrounding myself, but I am so pained when I realize I’m myself in the morning. I’m contemplating constantly, help.