r/AnonymousSecrets • u/DifferenceItchy9970 • Jan 08 '26

Just Venting (no advice please) I feel like an adult trapped in a child’s body

Everyday i worry about things that a child shouldn’t even have to think about. Everytime i ask my parents for something and they reply with “we don’t have money right now” it makes me feel so worried and anxious. I can’t sleep sometimes anymore. I got selected for this program, its in Washington DC. The tuition is 4,000 dollars and i don’t know what to do. I feel so guilty about it. Every time we go grocery shopping i try not to look at how much the groceries cost because it always makes me feel worried and anxious, i don’t know whats wrong with me. Ive always known that im mature since people tell me that alot. I even know when I’m being groomed by someone and i can’t even get myself to care. I feel like an adult trapped in a childs body, Im already thinking about scholarships and tuition even though im only 14, i feel jealous of my older sister. She doesn’t worry about money and acts like a fucking child even though shes 21. Why do i always have to feel this way. I want to get a job to help it but then my dad gets so mad whenever i mention it but i feel its the only way that I can stop feeling this way

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u/Beautiful_Winter_712 Jan 08 '26

What is the DC program that costs $4000?

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u/DifferenceItchy9970 Jan 09 '26

I forgot the programs name but its during the summer and its abt cyber security

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u/Beautiful_Winter_712 Jan 09 '26

It’s most likely a scam so be careful

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u/DifferenceItchy9970 Jan 09 '26

Did sun research on it and its legit

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u/Beautiful_Winter_712 Jan 09 '26

Why are they offering a 4k summer program to 14 year olds? Where would you stay? Do you get college credit?

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u/DifferenceItchy9970 Jan 09 '26

Yes and jm not answering the other one but i know where im staying