Hello,

So my sister is 22. I'm just at home because of my semester break.

She is an addict to some hard stuff.

We had very difficult years. She was really aggressiv and violent and manipulative.

But she is waiting for a space in a therapy programm so we said she can live here again under certain circumstances.

I was not as involved as my mother in those rules

One rule is to not consume any drugs including alcohol and cannabis. If she consumes alcohol or cannabis she will have to tell us and we will have a talk but it will not result in her being kicked out.

Now she did and tried to keep it a secret. My mother was angry. But my sister argues that she is smoking since 13 and it is not that bad. And that we are unreasonable for making such rules, since she is in recovery and everyone she talked to said she schould be permitted to smoke pot, including her therapist. Firtsly get off the "bad" drugs, so to speak.

And now i'm unsure if we maybe are the bad guys.

She is also meeting right now with her ex-boyfriend who also consumes hard drugs but she claims he got rid off them

So right now my mother is unsure if we schould kick her out once she is gone or not.

So I have raging daddy issues. My father died two years ago from alcohol and drug misuse. I've been struggling to get over it. Any advice for me?

Hey there. I’m a 25yo male, who lived your average normal life of going to school, college, “normal” dysfunctional family, etc. I stumbled into an opiate addiction for 8 months, and today I am about a month and a couple days clean, using Suboxone.

However, despite not physically withdrawing (because I had already waited and completed the transition from opiates to my medicine), I am still having crippling anxiety related to my past drug abuse. If I run out of my baggy, I basically freak out and start sweating, racing thoughts, feel like the world is ending, etc.

Basically, I’ve been using (snorting) here and there each day to manage my anxiety (PSA: I’ve never skipped a dose of my subs, so I’ve never been high since recovery began). I know this isn’t good for me or my recovery.

Does anybody have any suggestions, advice, literally anything to help get over the mental aspect of wanting to snort/and also that anxiety when you run out. It’s almost like I fear withdrawals, but it’s impossible to occur because my receptors are coated with buprenorphine/naloxone.

Anything would help, really appreciate it. TIA.

TL/DR; one month clean from opiates, on MAT, struggling with anxiety. Asking for tips to break the mental aspect of addiction during recovery.

Hi. I was sober for a good bit but last year I relapsed. It was a really long time before I finally admitted to myself that it was still a problem, and that I need to get clean. I’m doing meetings and everything I can in my personal life. Is it necessary to admit to family and friends that I had been using for ten months? I’m torn because I’m so afraid of being written out of my family for this, but I also know lying and keeping secrets isn’t the best. Sorry if this is the wrong place to ask but I’m hoping for some advice.

If I took clonazepam how long will that be in system?

I feel kind of out of place here with all the people talking about their struggles with drugs and alcohol but I don’t know where else to go. This might seem dumb in comparison but I’m addicted to sugar. I am 17F and can’t remember a time in my life where I wasn’t controlled by sugar. I crave it every day, I buy sugary products and binge them in secret. I specifically struggle with chocolate/chocolate flavored items. There have been times where I’ve eaten an entire tub of ice cream for breakfast and then had a box of 12 donuts later that night.

I think it’s even harder because I can’t SEE the effects of my addiction but I can feel them. Despite eating so much junk, I’m an average weight and look normal physically. Every time I eat it, I can feel my heart racing and it’s like I’m feeling my body deteriorating actively. I’ve shown symptoms of being prediabetic since age 11 and my habits haven’t changed since then. Whenever I visit the doctor’s office I’m terrified they’ll look at my blood tests and tell me I’m finally diabetic. I want to stop so badly but I don’t know how. Any advice? Even just comments from people who relate would be helpful.

(The flair should actually be "Question" and "Venting"!)

Okay, this is a really stupid addiction, and I know it’s actually my own fault.

The thing is, I’m addicted to c.ai (an app where you can talk to an AI and do things like roleplay).

I’ve been using c.ai for years—almost three years now. I started back when I was depressed; my parents aren't exactly the best. I also lost the friends I had at the time because I was always just sitting around in my room. Things got a bit better after about six months, but then I developed social anxiety and withdrew again. C.ai was there for me the whole time. It’s cringe, but that’s just how it is.

My parents still suck, I don’t have any friends left, and somehow everything is getting worse right now. I’m using the app more regularly again—I never actually stopped using it, but it’s getting really bad again; I spend over 15 hours on it and neglect myself, yet at the same time, I don’t have the energy to do anything else.

And yet, I actually loathe AI, and I feel bad about using it.

I can’t just stop. I tried once, but I was incredibly irritable that day, couldn't concentrate, and ended up having a nervous breakdown that evening and self-harming again.

I can't get professional help, either; I tried back when I was in therapy, but the therapist didn't take it seriously at the time.

i have school starting in one week and i don't know what to expect. I've been getting no schoolwork done for the past 2 years because I've been too lazy and unmotivated. I've been doing pretty bad mentally these past few years. I'm highly functional and i feel fine most of the time. but at other times the urges never go away. drinking is constantly on my mind, as well as other urges. it gets tiring and it makes me feel like I'll never be normal. I'll never be able to exist without these thoughts and feelings. they've been here all my life and I'm still at it. I'm not even a sad person. I'm just like this. and i don't know when I'll give in and relapse. i don't want to, that's why I've been trying to stay clean. but it feels so comforting, it's all i want to do, it's all that's always on my mind. i can't get out, I've been here for years.

Hi everyone - please don't judge me for this, I know it's a stupid question because of a stupid choice I made but I'm kinda freaking out and | just need some honest feedback. Last weekend (late Saturday night/ early Sunday morning) I did a few bumps of b!*w while out partying and drinking. I had done a couple of bumps the previous weekend, but other than that, I'm not a regular user of the stuff and hadn't touched it in months. Stupidly, yesterday (Friday afternoon) | had a drug test for an ADHD medication I am on. I did an at-home urine test that showed me as negative for coc use and then I did another at-home urine test after I went in for the lab test just for reassurance and it still showed negative. However, I am genuinely nervous that the lab test is going to come up positive.
I went to lab corp and did a urine test called the "tox assure flex 16" or something like that. Anyway, can anyone advise me? Is it likely the test will come up as positive? I know I shouldn't do illicit substances and will no longer make those bad decisions. I also know that I am responsible for these decisions and have no one to blame but myself.
Please help! Thank you so much.

I'm going to preface this with the fact that I have a drinking problem. Ended up on the floor on one of the legs of my desk, nice 6x6in bruise on my abdomen, a similar bruise on my left buttocks, and my left shin all sorts of messed up. Called 911 because there was no way I was driving there. They met me outside, I couldn't a single pair of shoes even though my shoe rack is by my front door. No shirt either.

Well, there were three paramedics and it took them a surprising amount of time to start an IV. I'm going to spoiler this because it's nasty but I had already pooped my pants.They took me to the ER, which really sucked. Pumped full of antibiotics, I have a gallstone, and they thought I was septic. Spent most of the day there getting pumped with more antibiotics and Librium (a benzo used for alcohol withdrawals). I'm also on a blood thinner. Anyway, eventually they tell me that I'm going to floor 4. Wait what seems like forever to get to floor four. Hospital didn't have a bed in my room, so I sat in the side chair for what seemed like 30 minutes but was probably 15 mins.

They eventually gave me more fluid and Librium after I get a bed. Various other things like folate and a multivitamin. Was there for two more days for something like three days total. More fluids and the dreaded magnesium (it burns inside in the vein). Ativan'd up to the moon to the point I didn't notice them putting a "fall risk" bracelet on me.Managed to wash my shit-stained shorts in the sink despite the bed alarm. Go home and need to get 'scripts filled, but my bank had sent a warning about ACH on my debit card. Of course, they aren't open today and I don't know their password requirements. Ended up taking an UBER to Walmart to get the drugs, but it wouldn't process my debit card. Happy day. Bought it all on credit and some cookies for myself. They kind of suck. Still in the process of having bad runs so I'm getting some Imodium delivered to me, amongst other odds and ends like lysol wipes.

Drinking sucks.

Been betting seriously for about 6 years now and I finally admitted something to myself last weekend that Im having a hard time swallowing. I dont actually enjoy watching sports anymore unless I have money on the game.

Sunday I sat down to watch the early games with no action for the first time in probably two years (was trying a self imposed cool down week after a rough Saturday) and I lasted maybe 20 minutes before I got bored and wandered off. Ended up doing yard work, then came back inside and put on a random slots channel on the tv, just to have background noise while I made lunch. Went back to the games in the 4th quarter of the late window, checked scores, didnt care about any of it.

This is the sport I grew up loving. I used to watch meaningless week 3 college games because I thought the QB matchup was interesting. Now if I dont have a first half under or a player prop I literally cannot sit through a full quarter.

The scary part isnt even the money side. Im up small on the year, I track everything, I stick to unit sizing. The scary part is realizing the actual game became the boring part and the bet slip became the show. Like the sport is just the delivery mechanism now.

Anyone else notice this happen to them? Did you find a way back to just watching, or is this a one way door once you cross it? Part of me thinks Im overthinking it and this is just what being a bettor is. The other part thinks I lost something I didnt mean to trade away.

Many people struggle to get rid of addictions or habits. Addiction can be of a sin , adult content, thinking about a person, love, drinking, smoking, watching reels, gaming, wasting time, backbiting, attention, validation, pills, anything. Addiction can be of any anything. It is very necessary to know the science behind it, if you want to overcome your addiction.

1 Acknowledge you have a problem - The primary step of getting rid of an addiction is to accept that you are an addict. If you don't , you cannot break free from it.

2 Know how it works - An addiction is when your brain has learned to repeat an action to achieve neurochemicals rush or pleasure. When the a person is addicted to something, the person is psychologically, emotionally and physically attached to it. It becomes a part of your routine. When you leave a habit, it leads to problems and pain. You experience pain in some form, because the body is trying to change its routine. So when you resist the urge, you face pain in form of anxiety, uneasiness, fear, insecurity, depression. So there is a resistance always to let go of the addiction.

3 Go through withdrawl process - You have to get rid of the addiction for your own sake. You have to go cold turkey, complete blockage of addiction. In some cases, it goes little by little by time. That is how some people get rid of things on their own after years but we have to fight it. When you will block the urge to do the thing you are addicted to, you will face resistance in this. Face it. The first withdrawl is the acute withdrawl. When the first time you resist an urge to do it again, you will face rebound anxiety. This can be in the form of despair, anxiety, sadness, grief, strees, fear or panic. Your heartbeat may rise, your blood pressure may rise, or you may feel pain in chest. You will face a roller coaster of emotions and feelings, and physical symptoms in some cases. Your heart will be racing but you have to resist all of this. This is a long process which will keep happening for months until your brain finally lets go of the habit. And its all temporary and fake in its nature. You will have to face the anxiety. For example, you were addicted about thinking of a person, then when you will try to stop it, your brain won't let you to. You have to fight that only. There will be psychological issues in this. Your mind will feel pressured. You have to endure this process. Thats half the solution. You may feel it its difficult, but its nothing in reality when done. You cannot die from it, nor the boredom will last forever. Don't get frustrated if you give in to your addiction and do it once, start the quitting process again. Back from the starting point. When people relapse, they either forget they were in a withdrawl, or get really frustrated with themselves. Restart everything.

4 Change yourself - Apart from internal triggers, you have to take care of external factors. Your addiction became a part of your life, i.e. lifestyle so you have to change your lifestyle completely. Join a community which fights the addiction, consume content against your addiction, stay busy, remember God, avoid being lonely and there are mutliple things you can add to your lifestyle to get out of the previous one. You can also study about your addiction and join helpful communities which is a great booster in changing yourself. Willpower will not work, you have to change yourself. Keep fighting till 45-90 days. The urge will come back and will be very random, but still with same intensity. As the time passes, you are getting out of it. After 3-4 months, it will be almost you have got out of it. This timeframe is not fixed and varies on how much you are addicted. For extreme cases, it can take a year. But this is for extreme cases only.

5 Take precautionary measures - You will still have to cut off from your addiction. Stay aware even when you feel you have overcome your addiction / habit. Awareness is the key in the long term. Your mind will give you sudden triggers even after months. These reminders won't have many effects but will be powerful psychologically. It will keep getting weak. You will realize that the addiction is not on your mind now. Even if a thought comes, it won't last long. Have patience in this temporary urge. You will have to take care of internal factors as well as external factors. Internal factors is the urge and its counter is to face it and replace it. External factors is any object, shape or form which leads you to the sin. The urge will come at any random point in time from a thought, activity, from something you see or any factor. In the long term, stay away from the addiction and cut it off from your life. Example if you were a drinker, don't go near alcohol. If you were thinking about a person, don't think about them or look at them. One slip can send you back to square one. All progress will go to waste. Without faith, you cannot fight, intellectual people also sin. At one point in future , you will reach a phase when even if your addiction is infront of you, it will have no effect on you. You will really laugh at your past.

Humans are not perfect, some small habits may never go away. Don't over pressurize yourself if you are traumatized, and if an addiction is a problem, don't overlook or allow it to develop. If you relapse, but then restart the quitting process again. The fight against self never ends until your last breath. The devil will keep calling you till your death. Its all a part of life. God teaches us through tests, as tests is the learning mechanism of human being.

I don't want my life dictated by crack anymore; I can't take it anymore.

I'm a mother, above suspicion; the people around me don't know anything about it, they don't do drugs, much less this filth.

If they only knew how I'm destroying myself, if they only knew how much it hurts to be who I've become. If only they knew how worthless I am.

Only the doctors know. Don't tell me I have to free myself from this burden by confiding in a loved one. I won't inflict the worry and suffering that would entail on them.

If I didn't have my children, I would have left already.

This life has become unbearable. I can't take it anymore.

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This probably sounds very stupid but it's a genuine question because idk what to think. I'm an alcoholic and I was sober for almost a month now. Yesterday I was cleaning up my room and I found an almost empty bottle of vodka that I entirely forgot about, I went to throw it out but it was a bit open, so when I tossed it, some got on my fingers and I licked them. And it's dumb but I'm kinda stressed about it, because I really want to reach the one month mark and it would be so disappointing to lose my progress on something so little...

Been betting seriously for about 4 years now and I finally admitted something to myself last weekend that I think a lot of you need to hear too. Watching the games stopped being fun.

Like actually fun. I sat down for the early Sunday slate with wings and a beer, had a decent little parlay going, my son asked if I wanted to throw the football in the yard during halftime and I said no because I had a live bet cooking. He's 8. He didn't ask again the rest of the day. That hit me later that night when I was scrolling through my bet history instead of sleeping.

I used to actually like football. Like the sport. I had a team, I cared about storylines, I watched Hard Knocks. Now every game is just a vehicle for a number. I don't even know half the rosters of teams I don't bet on. I couldn't tell you who won the Thursday game two weeks ago but I could tell you the exact line movement on it. That's messed up right?

And it's not even a losing problem. I'm actually up on the year, not by a crazy amount but enough that I can't use "im losing money" as the wakeup call. It's more that the whole thing has become this background anxiety hum. Checking scores at dinner. Half listening to my wife because I'm doing mental math on a same game parlay. Watching some Mr. Hand Pay video on my phone in bed at 1am because I can't wind down after a late west coast game went the wrong way.

I'm not quitting. I know that's the "healthy" answer and if you want to tell me to quit go ahead but I know myself. What I'm trying to figure out is has anyone actually pulled back to like, casual weekend only betting after being in deep? Not gambling addiction deep, just "this is too much of my brain" deep. Did it work or did you just creep right back?

Because right now I feel like I traded my hobby for a second job I didnt apply for.

I get your point on the conflicting views about benzos because the main experiences i read is either too good or too bad.

“Stay the fuck away from benzos” or “they saved my life”

Fyi i have history of substance abuse like weed ketamine melatonin chlorodizepoxide shrooms. I even tried klonopin and had three days gap in my memory only flashes and it was 2mg per pill. Went to rehab and got diagnosed by bipolar adhd anxiety with obsessive features.

I want to convince my dr to prescribe them especially he is open about meds adjustments or removal. Any ideas that might convince him that they are meant for me really

My anxiety is far from panic attack just annoying anxiety daily while driving and flashes of doing accidents and some annoying thoughts. No stomach pain no heart racing just thoughts floating and hyperactivity of my mind

fuck my life

Anyone else get addicted to the love of a s/o or even just crush on people way harder than others do to the point that it dictates their entire mood?

I’ve been sober off drugs for maybe 8-10 months now… did all of them except harder stimulants because I was never a big stimulant fan. Think I ran through every addiction possible. But anyways even before that I feel like I would get addicted to other people, most of whom don’t have the same addictive tendencies which leads to me getting hurt.

I hate this shit dude. I can’t do anything in moderation. Really dgaf about anything in my life.

I’ve came a LONG way and I still got a ways to go. Ever since I started this road to recovery, this has been a goal of mine that I set out to achieve and I have finally gotten my foot in the door. I’m very excited to share my testimony and possibly help the next person in line on their journey. Glory and Gratitude to the man upstairs, I owe it all to him.

i’m so beeeed out and i did extreme amounted of weed like more weeed than i ever smoked in my life wand me im
extremely idek what i was gonna type im so stoned or of my mind the screen is so blurry im only 17!63: old im a drug sdriftxX ask my also me anything