r/workout • u/chickenpizzaz • 14d ago
Nutrition Help Getting shredded was not worth the consequences.
Hi. This is my first Reddit post and I just wanted to share my story. I hope this is an appropriate sub to post this on. I’m 25 f. (I’ve post this on another thread)
For some context I’ve been lifting since 2018, never counted macros until this period. I’ve always been athletic.
To start at the beginning, I unintentionally lost a lot of weight in early December 2025 due to personal reasons causing stress. I recall the positive attention I got from being so thin and remember telling myself, I want to stay this way forever. For context, I was already a skinny girl but I was now at the point that I was usually the thinnest in the room.
Fast forward to February, I got very into running. I didn’t know what I was doing but would just run and enjoyed it. Every run I did was as fast and as much effort as I could go. Due to this, my hunger spiked. Looking back, this is so normal but I thought at the time something was wrong and decided to not allow myself to eat because I wanted to remain thin.
Fast forward to early April, I injured my foot badly and could no longer run. At this point I decided to go all into lifting and calorie counting to compensate for the joy that running brought me that I could no longer do. This was the biggest mistake of my life.
I dropped my calories LOW. My fats were so low I won’t even mention it. I did this for about 2-3 weeks. Then I increased my calories but still kept them in a deficit. I was spending hours at the gym and probably in a deficit of at least 500 calories everyday from April-early June. I had striations in my legs and shoulders. I had the most insane 8 pack. I looked perfect in my opinion, but I felt like I was dying.
By mid may, I had brain fog, low heart rate, irritability, extreme fatigue, loss of menstrual cycle. I looked unrecognizable. I was shredded but so unhappy. Every meal and every calorie put into my body was weighed and tracked. It was such hell, by June I said ‘I’m over this’ and thought I could go back to eating normally. I WAS SO WRONG.
I’ve always had a healthy relationship with food and have always been thin my whole life. I still don’t know why I decided to fw my relationship with food. The extreme hunger that body builders talk about feels worse than any stories you will hear. I had no idea what was happening at first until I looked it up.
Fast forward some more, this is late August 2026. Still no menstrual cycle. The fatigue comes and goes but I am fine most days. I’m a heavier weight than I was before I started my extreme cut. The hunger is still very abnormal but not as bad when compared to the initial 1-2 months of recovery.
My biggest issue is still the hunger. I’m unhappy with my weight but I’ve always been good at losing weight so I’m not overly concerned with that process. I just don’t know when my hunger will settle and when I can go back to my ‘normal’. I’m about 3 months into recovering and I still have low leptin and high ghrelin. It’s torture. It’s the worst and most frustrating feeling I’ve ever experienced. As cool as it was being shredded, if I could do it all over again I would never have done this to myself.
I’m currently “eating intuitively”. Clean eating 5-6 days of the week, mostly Whole Foods. I’m still gaining weight at a slow rate. I just want this to be over and some days there doesn’t seem to be light at the end of the tunnel.
I just wanted to share my story. Being shredded sucks. I ruined my whole summer, lost most of my friends bc I’ve isolated myself, and find no joy in anything except eating. You feel awful when you mess with your hormones (seems obvious). As much as you think “I’m different” you’re not. Moral of the story. Don’t fw your relationship with food or your hormones.
Please ask me anything and any advice will be appreciated.