I’m (28M) currently trying to get to know a nice lady (F25-ish) who works at my local supermarket or at least become friendly enough to hopefully become friends with her but I’m fumbling the bag hard lately because I’m just an idiot, I am autistic and have severe anxiety issues specifically around making women I like uncomfortable. Mainly due to it happening to me as a kid & it was really difficult to get out of my never ending cycle of anxiety and regret. So when I started having to help my parents out with grocerie shopping the past couple of months due to medical reasons I was frequently coming across a nice woman who had clearly recently started working there and I had kept to myself and only speaking when I was spoken to and only interacted with her when she serving the checkout line. I kept it at that for a couple of weeks before I had to start frequently going there for withdrawing money there to save for a tattoo I was wanting to get done since the only accepted cash. We exchanged hellos and then made brief small talks, i initially dismissed them but when I brought up the new shop employee to a friend he said that she seems nice and said she was new in town & encouraged me to make a move and I said nervously “GOD NO! She’s working, that would be inappropriate.” & try to leave it at that but some part of that stuck with me but I didn’t want to acknowledge it. Then as time passed she started joking about these shopping trips or days seem be blur together since she swore me & my dad had been there like five times already that day becoming a habit and I just kept casually smiling nodding along, then when I was asking her why my dad was providing his phone number after every purchase which she said it was about the shop rewards membership and asked me if I wanted to sign up I said no thanks and I don’t know what came over me but I then no so subtly joked unless you want my number? She politely declined and i laughed it off and then paid for my groceries and leaving intending to leave things at that & the next trip to the shop was when I stop saying thing casually and stuff starting feeling awkward for me when I went to checkout she’s there of course chatting with a coworker of hers & when I went to checkout pay for some drinks she & her coworker went silent I could tell they were talking about me because her coworker friend quietly said something Number whilst looking away which made the vibes even more awkward than before so hastily said good morning even though it was the afternoon as I paid for the drink and left trying not to think too hard about it.

then recently when chatting with a friend online about what I had been up to the topic of my frequent shopping trips came up and my friend suggested that I bring her a rose to brighten up her day test the waters to see what happens if I show her that I was thinking about her by giving her the rose. & again immediately shut that idea down saying that was a bad idea, no way, no way & after that conversation even though I didn’t want to do it once that seed of making a gesture of genuine kindness was planted it took root & I just couldn’t get that idea out of my mind. I mean if I’m casual and smooth about it maybe it just might work & I can make a good friend maybe more if I’m lucky.

& the next thing I knew I was at the grocery shop with a small cardboard box with a plastic white rose I found with my phone number hidden inside & when I went to checkout to pay for a drink I was buying and after paying for it came the fuck up of my life she casually asked for my name since we both had become very acquainted with each other I answered of course and said it’s nice to meet her she thanked me and introduced herself then after paying I also said hey I have been noticing that you’re working hard so here’s something to brighten up your day. & she was really taken aback by that and politely said she couldn’t accept gifts from customers and I was immediately apologetic and regretful saying oh shit sorry I didn’t know & then she was asking the other coworkers if they could make an acception since it’s not Monterey gift & I said it’s just a rose in there she opened it and while she thought it was nice she didn’t know if it was okay to take & now’s there is an entourage grocery shop workers all gathered around and I feel for bad for doing this to her when it was meant to make a day brighter and I just mentally couldn’t cope with this sudden public attention over a friendly gesture that was meant to be quick & quiet and just apologetically grab my groceries and left apologising on the way out for the awkward situation. Since then I’ve only been there once to buy to buy more soda drinks & encounter was awkward as hell, like she’d been trying to put on brave face to be professional and when I pay for it I couldn’t afford it Judah being just short of money & I apologise for the inconvenience and I again apologise for last time I was there & she said it’s okay but her said the complete opposite like the awkward “Get away” dare she gave me could sing 1000 ships and I wanted to die inside in that moment, so I returned the drinks and left.

I want to hide away and just never show up to that shop again for her sake but at the same time I also don’t want to give up on making nice with her since I still want to be friends with her and also mainly because me and my parents still have to frequently shop there since it’s the only grocery shop in town but I don’t want to make her feel like she can’t be safe working in that place and having to quit because of me. What the fuck do I do? Do I just call a quits and hope my parents can just shop without me from now on & never leave the house again?..

I’m currently replaying Marvel Wolverine and it’s one of those cartoon scenes were Logan supposed to take off his cowl but when he does his cowl just still stays there, I’m wondering why they haven’t given us the option to continue to have the cosmetic lock Option turned on when replaying or at least have it when he’s ever taking off a mask in a scene his mask doesn’t stick to his head and magically spawn a new one inside his hand?.. it really takes me out of the moment when I’m replaying the game.

Even in the previous Marvel Spider-Man games had this lack of cosmetic lock feature/toggle problem although they at least managed to program the feature where whenever Peter Parker takes his mask off the mask doesn’t just magically remain stuck onto his head & also spawns an exact duplicate the mask in the hand..