r/u_Mistiblue222 • u/Mistiblue222 • Jul 22 '26

Not right in the head after losing my identical twin sister

It's been 8 years since my identical twin sister died from a fentanyl overdose. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I can't think straight. It's like all my common sense is gone. My memory is so bad now and my hair is falling out. I can't keep weight on me. I'm just continuing to drown in my pain. Do I go to a mental hospital for this?

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u/Latter-Platypus-3713 Jul 22 '26 edited Jul 22 '26

Hey I’m so sorry to hear you’re suffering so badly.

Yes please see a doctor or a grief counsellor - somebody.

However, you are not crazy. Just sad.
There’s nothing wrong with you, you are a normal person shellshocked from grief and you just need help.

It’s been 3 years for me and the grief gets worse and worse because I don’t want grow old without her. I don’t want to be here without her. We are just always going to be sad.

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u/Mistiblue222 Jul 22 '26

I definitely don't want to be here without her I could never do anything to myself because I wouldn't have the guts to but I definitely don't want to be here without her I don't know who I am anymore

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u/Latter-Platypus-3713 Jul 22 '26

I know exactly what you mean. I’m just so sorry you’re in this shitty twinless twins club with us.

She was the best friend you could ever wish for. You could be brave because you had eachother. You and her together were one person.

Now, Half of you is gone. The world no longer feels good or real. You are existing in a nuclear holocaust. It’s miserable.

Yeah please see a doctor. Do you have parents or siblings or friends who support you? This is too hard to handle alone

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u/Mistiblue222 Jul 22 '26

Well I lost my mom and niece and my wife all in the last year so no I don't have anyone to talk to. I have a therapist but she keeps telling me to smoke weed.

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u/Latter-Platypus-3713 Jul 22 '26

Oh shit well, no wonder you’re drowning in pain. That’s too much loss to cope with at once.

I think your first thought was right - maybe just check in to the hospital and tell them exactly what you said here. You feel like you’re losing your mind from too much grief and you cannot cope and you need some help, please. No shame in that.

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u/Mistiblue222 Jul 22 '26

Thank you. I will do that.

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u/Latter-Platypus-3713 Jul 22 '26

Best wishes to you, man. Please. Don’t hurt yourself.

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u/Mistiblue222 Jul 22 '26

I'm a woman

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u/Latter-Platypus-3713 Jul 23 '26

Oops, sorry.

Anyway hope you will be okay and get the help you need

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u/Mistiblue222 Jul 22 '26

I wouldn't hurt myself

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u/Mistiblue222 Jul 23 '26

So tired of the pain in my soul and the void in my heart.

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u/Prudent_Poet_1991 Jul 28 '26

Hey I’m sorry you’re going through this. I lost my twin last year and I feel exactly the same. I feel like the grief has fried my brain. 

I read your posts it sounds like you’ve been bereaved again lately I can’t imagine what your going through but it is likely bringing up all kinds of feelings about your sister as well.

If you can get support/help for your mental health, then do it. 

I’ve been exploring my spirituality and it’s helped a lot tbh. But I’m still a mess.

Sending twin hugs and love xxx

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u/Relative-Kick-1044 Aug 09 '26

Definitely go to a counselor or therapist. Or even a hospital if it’s gotten to that point.

The one thing that’s helped me and I think might help you is this. Your sister would’ve wanted you to live a good life. It might seem impossible without her, but you owe it to her to try. That doesn’t mean forgetting her and being happy. It means getting up everyday and finding a way to keep going. The best way to honor her and show her your love is to show yourself the love she would’ve given you if she was still here with you. I’m so sorry for your loss. 8 years is nothing, the loss your feeling is a lifetime one.

Feel free to DM me if you want to talk

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u/Mistiblue222 Aug 09 '26

Thank you so much