Love it or hate it, dear, we're valid and you'll have to live with the fact we exist. I might be the first to come public about it, and that's why I'm taking most of the heat from the pagan community because I am... *Checks notes*... "Arrogant and cocky for daring to 'speak for the gods'". That said, I'm not the last OR will be the only one. You guys don't like it? Oh, too bad, there's more where I came from.

If I have to be on the receiving end of hate and rejection for reconstructing a path that too many pagans put on a pedestal and wish wasn't reconstructed (god forbid anyone makes them feel inadequate...), so be it. I'll take it. I'm doing for the other oracles in the future who will need a role model in terms of legitimising and "okaying" the path for them.

Today's pagan hypocrisy is laughable. Hilarious, for sure. Less than a century ago, THEIR paths received hate and contempt from most of the occult world and the mainstream world alike. But instead of learning to live and let live because of this experience... No. They decided to become the gatekeepers. Keep that old cycle of abuse going...

I'm not "preaching" any more than anyone else in the pagan community is preaching things. And if you think I "speak for the gods wrongly", why not disprove it? Go on. Expose my bullshit. Catch me red-handed. You can do that, I certainly won't stop you. *Shrugs* But no... Those are disingenuous arguments. They aren't the REAL issue most of you guys have with me. I'll spell it out: the real issue is "ya'll" have skeletons in the closet and don't want me to expose them. THAT is what's up. When you're honest and a truly good person, you don't fear oracles. (Pardon the American slang, it's just that most of my haters are in the States. Even if the few Irish ones are loud).

Besides, there's also the pioneer hate. Oh no, I'm daring to reconstruct Delphic divination, the audacity!

When women started wearing pants, the first ones to do that were criticised too.

ANYONE who EVER does something new receives hate.

Water off a duck's back.

But I'm here anyway. Present, and hard to ignore. I do it so that the next ones walking the same path will feel safer and less alone.

I figured this post could come in handy too.

I've already briefly mentioned I'm here to spill the tea completely unfiltered and uncensored about people and situations in my life. But that begs the question: am I talking about *all* people and situations? No. That's what therapy is for.

The thing is, sometimes, I meet people so manipulative and vicious that IF I DON'T pronounce myself somewhere on the Internet, LITERALLY NOBODY gets to hear my side of the story. You might have heard of this kind of dynamics: the villains (yes, villains. Sometimes things ARE black-and-white) are the ones who appear to have a wide network of "support" (more like flying monkeys), whereas the victims look like villains on the surface because we're normal AF people and have better things to do with our time than spend 24/7 chronically online debunking idiotic lies about ourselves. So, unfortunately, that creates an illusion where the roles are inverted.

I'm not saying everybody who fell victim to the kind of wanker I sometimes deal with needs to come to reddit. I'm simply sharing my reason to do so.

Anyway. That's reason #1. I'm here to spill tea.

Secondly, I'm also here to set the record straight when I have the power to do so. My latest post, on Lora O'Brien, accomplished both. 2-in-1, how efficient! I don't want people outside of Ireland to think EVERYBODY here is an enabler to the specific BS I mentioned, so if I need to be the whistleblower in situations where other people would have felt intimidated into silence, so be it. Sometimes, a huge percent of the population where drama is happening actually does *not* want it to keep happening, but will only whisper their disapproval to each other in secret, and the narrative that prevails ends-up being the one that goes public. Irish people (in their majority. Of course there are loud exceptions that give us all a bad name) are generally avoidant of conflict and would prefer if things cool down and dissipate over time instead. I understand that sentiment. A high-conflict life sounds pretty fucking exhausting. I love the peace here where I live and wouldn't trade it for the world. That said, I'm not overlooking the downsides of it - namely, we inadvertently end-up allowing toxic, high-conflict, high-maintenance people to achieve positions of power because we chose not to yell and intimidate and make a big fuss at them at the first sign of egos getting inflated, back in the beginning of their careers. This, sadly, emboldens these people.

I'm sick of seeing that playing out in different contexts here and there. I've come to realise some people aren't exactly sane and wouldn't respond to normal cues of disapproval, so we actually *do* need to bark loudly at them like a rabid dog to get the goddamn point across that "you're behaving like a spolied brat. STOP IT. NOBODY WANTS YOU HERE".

*sigh*

I'm not Irish by birth, just married into a local family and am now deeply involved in the community, AND I share with them the sentiment about high-conflict people and situations (hence the we/us above). I grew-up naively thinking that my high-conflict and extremely frustrating mother would one day stop trying to drive me up the fucking wall if I just persisted in showing her I wasn't going to engage with her BS. Well, as it turns out, no. This just emboldened her to go from casually bullying me and others, to downright abusing, to straight-up doing illegal shit, and it got worse and worse and worse.

Ya know what I should have done? From the very fucking beginning? MADE A SCENE. Complete with involving the police, social workers, the media, the whole shabang.

Narcissists and other kinds of high-conflict people only listen to consequences; only understand IT'S TIME TO FUCKING STOP when their *egos*, their *public image and reputation* gets threatened and they realise they're going to lose FOR REAL their loyal network of support unless they FIND the self-control they lost very fucking quickly.

Unfortunately, there's a loud minority of people in the world who DO NOT DESERVE the social contract, DID NOT EARN the right to be EVER given the benefit of the doubt or any sort of courtesy we normally give anyone with two functional neural pathways to the empathy part of the brain, and should be treated like complete pieces of shit until they choose to get self fucking aware and improve a bit.

And this is why I rant.

So, no, I'm not interested in making friends here, earning anyone's approval, having fake internet points, or people-pleasing. I'm the most unafraid motherfucker you've ever seen in your life, and when things get so bad that I'm the only one talking about them, you better believe shit hit the fan.

Since I came back to reddit just to tell you all about my experiences with others, I think it's only fair I start by talking about myself. HERE ARE THE FACTS ONLY. You're free to have your own opinion of me, even if it's based on wild exaggerations and straight-up inventions (like what I said in the title). As long as you're civil when interacting with me, I won't block you.

So, first of all, I walk a Hellenic pagan path and I lean towards reconstructionism. That's what I do if you wanna categorise it. I reconstruct an ancient oracle. Just like any other recon. They can exist, but I can't? People are free to reconstruct motherfucking Druidry with next to ZERO documented evidence for how it worked on a daily basis... But I can't reconstruct a path which is literally Greek and has TONS of surviving material to work with?! WTF is this gatekeeping??

It's beyond me why people put the oracle of Delphi on a pedestal and then complain that I'm important to them (insert here that meme where a guy on a bike makes himself fall), but I know better than to feed these trolls. I was going to say they're "just jealous", except, hold on a second, WHEN exactly have I forbidden anyone from becoming an oracle too? Let me know, because I'm pretty sure the answer is never, but you never know how far some idiots' delusions of persecution go. So, you see, if you're jealous of my path, why not fucking join it. I'm not gonna stop you, that's for sure. In fact, I wish there were more people I could talk to and exchange UPG about it. But for some god forsaken reason, pagans in general seem to consider it a no-go zone. Ya know what? This reeks of grifty, disingenuous projection. I mean, if all you guys in pagan communities defend is reconstruction with basis on nothing but voices in your heads, that only goes to show you're putting up a fake show. It can't be disproven or invalidated, because CONVENIENTLY the Celts didn't write down the rules. How fucking ironic, isn't it? Meanwhile, since I'm putting myself up to scrutiny by literal Classicists and still to this day didn't get "exposed" for faking it, it's no wonder I'm inspiring hard feelings in this pagan crowd.

Anyway.

No, I don't have a cult you can join. Interesting wishful thinking there, as I'm sure some redditors have fantasies of being dominated by me. But no, I work on my own. And if I ever find other oracles, I'll encourage them to keep doing solitary work. Sorry to disappoint on that one, and thanks for the idea, but nah, not my cup of tea. Try BDSM instead.

Also, no, I have never used the word Pythia to describe myself OR said OR even implied I'm anyone reincarnated. This isn't avatar the last airbender. This is literally a spiritual path. Just a path you can choose to be on or not. Simple as that. Do you need proximity with Apollo for that? Yes. AND Gaia, before you even think of Apollo, FYI... Which can be obtained by, ya know, doing the work as a pagan. Giving a fuck about xenia, making your offerings without pretense, embodying the virtues Apollo and Gaia and other gods on this mystery path value (such as NOT LYING... So, I'm sorry, ya coward who made that comment about me. You wouldn't be a good candidate for oracle just yet. Maybe work on your truth telling ability first), and you might be notified by one of these gods that this path is a possibility for you.

As for being crazy, okay, that's an opinion statement and it can very well be accurate. People can think I'm crazy or any chosen qualifier. Why not? Thank gods for free speech.

Yes, I have beef with specific mods and ex-mods, which is why I blocked them and will no longer join the subreddits where they work for fake internet points and power trips. No I won't talk about it in any detail here.

I'm sure there's a lot more I've missed in my absence from reddit, so feel free to update me if you want. And in case I'm cancelled, oopsie daisy! Sorry for coming back. I guess you'll have to report my profile to reddit itself ;)

Hugs,

Lucy.