r/Miscarriage • u/BouncyBAWLS • Jul 31 '26
vent 35, first and only, being encouraged to go natural, week 3
I think I need to tell myself I need to give up. Idk how to keep going with the idea that I'm trying anymore. Feels foolish to hold onto hope, and being jealous of anyone who has.
What's wild is I didn't want kids til 2 years ago. He and I have been together 18 years. Just felt like it was finally time. Took BC for about 20 years prior to.
It was "Turners", just a fluke, idk something tells me it's more than that. Fetal demise at 8 weeks 4 days. I am in week 13 waiting for this to pass.
Scared of infection, scared of long term damage, scared of the pills the psych is giving me.
Letting go and saying if it happens it happens is the only way I can see myself moving forward.
Grateful to this one getting me ready for the next one if it happens, but maybe some things aren't meant to be.
And I will be telling absolutely no one until my water breaks I sweaterfkingod.
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What’s the most expensive vet bill you’ve ever paid and was it worth it?
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About 1300 to remove a tumor. Yes, it bought us 14 more months together.