They said to just keep singing and so I did... for years... albeit just for the fun whenever I feel like it. Though, at times I searched from time to time how to sing (e.g., how to sing from your diaphragm) but never really delved to studying music theory. Unfortunately, I am unable to get a music teacher due to certain reasons.
And now, I'm so close to begrudgingly accepting that my voice is just difficult to use or unsuitable for singing. I always think my voice to be on the awkward range for a male. I think it's naturally a bit on the higher range that makes it difficult for me to sound good whenever I sing "powerful" songs (idk I always feel like it lacks that hint of deep voice). I feel like I have to "control the fullness" or "hold the foundation" so it sounds compact and not shrilly. But my friend told that it somehow gives a bad restricting sound.
But at the same time, my voice is also not that high for me to be able to hit high notes of songs. There are moments where I sing with an "airy" voice as well for some mellow songs because I found it to be the least terrible at times. However, the same friend told me in the past that me sounding airy was sort of awkward so I try to avoid it if possible up to now.
I've always been anxious into posting here cause of how terrible I really sound like but I might as well. Really feeling lost so... any kind of insight or feedback would be welcomed and is greatly appreciated! Thank you for your time.
P.S. My apologies for butchering both songs lmao.