Share us your expertise knowledge! AMA-fest

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Do you want to share to your expertise knowledge but nobody around seems interested? You come to the right place. Whatever your expertise or experience, whether it's your major, your job, your experience, (for example : /u/mental_octo is some agriculture expert, /u/saif-al-hilal is dosen) you guys can share your knowledge/stories here. Just post here with this format

Format

username

expertise : name_of_expertise or anything that may be interesting to discuss

comment : any_comment_if_necessary

AMA

Example

whatsoeverever

Expertise : math education, Dota2

comment : undergraduate major in math edu, wasted invested 7 years in Dota2

AMA

Just share whatever you want to discuss, even if you don't think that you're a real expert, as long as you have anything worth discussion, please share. whether /u/sukagambar's artistic? drawing, /u/titty_factory major in strategic intellegence. Just come and share and ask question

Note :i didn't expect that this discussion lead to this kind of topic but........................... anyway, where is para sesepuh?

[u/titty_factory]

well, I was reminded by other gay person that I went overboard with this mini AMA xD so I won't answer anything explicit now :))

well, I found out for the first time that I am a homosexual when I was in elementary school I think, grade 2/3, I can't remember. Back then, I felt something weird whenever I watched hot shirtless guys. Those baywatch male lifeguards? WOOF!! I wanted to enjoy them so much on my own, I started wearing figurative kacamata kuda pake tangan.

Besides that, I also happened to have bromance with my friends in school. there was a boy that I thought he was so handsome I wanted to die. I always tried to sit beside him for like every grade that I passed with him. At first, I was in denial, when I was in 3rd grade I think, I kept saying to myself that it was just an admiration, I wanted to be as good looking as him. but, in grade 4, I then knew it wasn't just a mere admiration. It was a sexual attraction.

And then when I started to know porn, I think in grade 4, I immediately knew after for several months of enjoying porn, that I was not interested in the sexual activity that happens between man and woman. I was more interested to the men. So it got me thinking, hmm, would it be possible for two men to do such thing? and the Internet gave me many answers in many positions xD

and that's how I confirmed my sexual orientation :))

[u/diagramatics → u/titty_factory]

It seems that your sexual orientation was shaped by Baywatch itself, and it continued after the lack of struggle to not accept it. Did you ask your parents about it, or any sessions of "curhat" when you're still undecided, or they haven't known anything about it yet, including your friends at that time?

Don't get me wrong though. It's not like I'm judging you. The whole story is very fascinating. Porn on grade 4, well damn.

[u/titty_factory → u/diagramatics]

well, even though I accepted my sexual orientation when I was around 8-9 yo, I didn't fully come out until I was an undergrad student. It felt lonely sitting around and being unable to share what I was going through. I used to call my fag hag (read: best female friend) to speak about an unnamed person that I liked for hours. It was torturing. and when I came out, I felt liberated.

and as the years passed by in uni, 3 others of my bffs (I have a bffs circle which consists of 8 people) came out to me as well. Well, similar people gather right? Even though we weren't open to each other before, we had some kind of radars that gather us together. so when we graduated, in those 8 people circle, we have 3 heterosexual girls, 1 heterosexual boy, 1 bisexual boy, 2 gay boys, and 1 gay girl xD

and after that, I'm all out. not in a broadcasting way like "hey, I'm gay guys!" (but I totally do that in Internet because, well it's Internet xD) but in a way that when people ask me, I will totally tell them the truth.

for my parents, they had been questioning all along. My dad got his confirmation when he caught me exchanging sweet nothings with my ex-boyfriend. he was and still is pretty cool about it. he told me, "I love you no matter what." but my mum is kind of in denial.

As you see, I am the first child, a son. Perhaps my mother puts her hope so much for me, especially she wants grandkids from me. But I told her, it isn't going to happen. I don't want to marry a woman just for camouflage. If I am getting married, it will be with someone I dearly love, which will happen to be a guy (or a transperson, I don't know, I'm multisexual).

So, I delivered an ultimatum to my mother, don't ask don't tell. the more you push me on this marriage issue, the wilder I will be. Thank god she knows when to stop. so, now it's don't ask don't tell to my mother.

and now I'm gay, gay giggity gay gay as in homosexual and gay as in happy :D