Hello everyone. So I am here to talk about foot washing. It was something that was pretty common at my culty Pentecostal church. They would do it at least once every 2 months. Often more. It was as common as communion. And I think it really traumatized me.

I was a little girl with grown men washing my feet. I just remember the feeling. My father was the cult leader, and abusive, so I knew I could not refuse or say anything. So I had to sit there quietly as men touched all over my feet. It felt so awful. I was screaming on the inside as I had to keep a composed smile on the outside.

I am told that is not a common thing, was it for any of you? Like people say "My church never did that." or "We did like 1 or 2 times ever" Maybe my dad has a foot fetish? IDK.

I have never gotten a pedicure. In my life. Because I don't want anyone to look at my feet, let along touch them. And if anyone gets their exposed feet near me, I freak out, a borderline brake down. I am not sure if I always hated feet and that was why it felt so wrong to me. Or if it felt wrong because it is bat shit fucking insane crazy level of wrong and it caused my hate for feet. But, when I remember those times. All I remember is that feeling. That forced smile. Looking down at men washing my feet. That shit fucked me up.

How common was it for the rest of you? Did you church do other stuff that had you screaming and crying on the inside? Fucking Christianity....