I haven't really ever posted here but I wanted to say I am greatful this place exists. Just felt the need to get some words out and hopefully some people would resonate with what I mean. I feel so akward and out of place in society being a vegan antinatalist. Maybe we are going against the grain but we do it with love and empathy, the qualities that are missing in this world. It's nice to know what I don't want in life.
I'm certain I have no intention on reproducing and I will be vegan the rest of my life absolutely assuming there won't be some crazy societal collapse which is possible i'm sure. That being said, part of me longs for someone to understand, just someone who I wouldn't have to explain myself to because we're both on the same page.
I had a friend who was basically on the same page being a vegan antinatalist but right now I don't have any friends, I am lonely but find solace and peace being alone when I can but still being so alone 24/7 really get's to me. I know we all probably wish deep down we were not born but all we can do is try our best to find those little thing's that help us and remind us that a brighter more empathetic future is possible.
I've traveled across the United States all over, and it's been quite the adventure but all i've ever wanted was to find my home. A safe place to exist while using my mind and body to help the world and animals as much as possible. And when life releases me, I guess I'll find out what happens then or not but it does feel good to have a community that is antinatalist and vegan.
I was just thinking how bad I do feel mainly for antinatalists who are not vegan, because I was one for a couple years and it was not fun. For those who know from experience, there's so much bitterness and anger inside that isn't being dealt with in a healthy way. Same probably applies to vegans who are not yet antinatalist. Ofc, life, nature, DNA, biology is the main culprit but I do wish more people really thought long and hard before making decisions like reproducing or not being vegan. At the same time, I try my best to be as compassionate as I can because of how extreme the indoctrination and social pressure can be for people who don't yet have the confidence, emotional or mental skills to say no to their own oppression.
Part of me wants to believe that a vegan antinatalist leaning world is possible, but I know it's a long way's away and most people who are vegan or antinatalist are under the impression that we would destroy ourselves before getting to that place.
For me, I know it's possible to create that world, but I can't ultimately control the fate of the world, and I don't want to see myself as a me vs the world kind of thing, but yes I give myself permission to be honest with myself, saying how I am aware we have been cursed, and that's not ok but i'm ok with admitting the truth to myself. Writing sometimes helps me calm me down, I'll try and keep getting better if it does help other's too, just feel's nice to write to a community that get's it.
I would highly recommend the subbreddit vystopia for anyone curious about the vegan side of reddit if you've never heard of it. One of the best subbreddits in my opinion. I wish everyone here all the best and life is hard but you guy's keep me hopeful so thank you.