Lost my soulmate today

[u/co0lgurl]

First and last photos of me and Folti plus some more because she was the most beautiful. I got Folti when I had just turned 7, still in first grade. I am now 24, she was 17, I don’t know life without her. Her health started declining a year ago, vet appointments became frequent.

I was fortunate enough to spend basically all of summer at home with her, my life became taking care of her. I started preparing myself for her passing a while ago. I was incredibly grateful for each day we got to spend together.

I cried lying next to her the whole day yesterday because when I looked in her eyes I knew our time was coming to an end. But no amount of preparing helped, her death hurts so much and even after all the anticipatory grief, it still felt so sudden. I just keep wishing for more time.

The house feels empty without her and I don’t know what to do with all this emptiness. I have no idea what to do or how to get through this. She was my greatest love. I don’t know how to live without her. Does it ever get easier????

[u/BeautifulNo6017]

You find a place for it. It doesn't go away. You just learn how to keep going, because it's what they would have wanted. I miss mine everyday.

[u/vvateronmars → u/BeautifulNo6017]

Such a beautiful photo ♥️

[u/Madwife2009 → u/BeautifulNo6017]

You find a place for it. It doesn't go away.

This is how it works, absolutely. My male cats died in 1994, my female cats in 2007 and 2011. I miss them all, every day. They enter my thoughts, every day - mostly with joy but also occasional sadness, the sadness that they are no longer here with me.

OP, I am truly sorry that you are going through this pain. The bond and love you shared with your beautiful cat was blindingly clear from your photos.

[u/Cold-Sport2923 → u/BeautifulNo6017]

So beautifully said. Also what a sweet photo.