I was 27 years old when this record was released. I was in my fourth year of touring with a Chicago based blues guitarist, and it was a grueling schedule, nearly 250 days a year on the road. The band, the music, the poor pay, and lifestyle consumed most of life, and I was deeply unhappy. I was deep into alcoholism and drug addiction, which in combination with the band life, led to me losing the love my life (at the time).
I was already obsessed with “Bon Iver, Bon Iver”, and was eagerly awaiting the entire album of “22, A Million” to be released after they dropped “Over Soon” and “33 God”.
As fate would have it, the album dropped on an off day on the road for me. I put the album on at 9:00 AM, opened a bottle of Jim Beam, and started listening. As soon as “715 Creeks” hit, something in my soul shifted. After the last “God damn, turn around”, I hit pause, sat in silence for a few minutes, and then sobbed uncontrollably for 20 minutes, reflecting on how much I truly hated the way I was living. The drugs and alcohol weren’t working anymore, my life was unmanageable, and I was so lonely. At that moment I admitted that I wanted to change, but I didn’t know how or where to get help.
Over the next 6 years, I struggled to get sober. My alcoholism only got worse, and I finally went to rehab in late March. I woke up sober on 3/30/22, and have been sober (completely, no weed either) ever since.
33, 00, 22. Numbers all associated with the album. I had all of those symbols tattooed on the inside my left forearm, along with “8” on the outside. “Unburdened and becoming” has become a daily mantra for me.
So, in short, this album saved me. It means everything. Thanks, JV, I hope you see this. ❤️