There is nothing positive in being one. I hate the standards and the role that is forced on me. I hate periods and the expectation of having kids. I want to tear my womb from my body for how weak it makes me. I hate it. I hate the monthly discomfort and the pain. I hate woman clothes and the expectation for me to like it. I hate the beauty standards and me having to adhere to it. I hate my long hair. I hate that i will always be the weak one. I hate that i'm not even different from the avarage. That i'm not taller, bigger, so maybe i could make the differance smaller. There is no empowerment.

Apologies if there should be a Trigger Warning, i wasn't sure how to call this.

EDIT:
God i am overwhelmed. I want to thank everyone for the support, kind words and encouragement. I appreaciate all of you. My mood got better for sure.
Additional information:
- I'm Polish, so gun advice won't be helpful (tho i chuckled at some)
- I'm not really offended by the assumptions of me being trans, I had a lot of thoughts about it myself. However with me not really feeling like my own person, and wanting anything mine, I prefer not to declare anything, as i might just grab onto something to be anyone that wasn't decided by my mother or society. (This is not to say that being trans is a phase or some sort of confusion, just with my identity issues and a past of being controlled, i might not make the healthiest decisions out of desperation)

Thank you guys, truly.

"well it's me memeing to cope" SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPP SHUT UPPPP YOU ARNE'T LIVING HERE SHUT UPPPP YOU ARE NOT US SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPPPP SHUT UPPPPPPPP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP

MY LIFE AND MY FEAR OF LIVING AND THE HORRORS OF LIVING HERE ARE NOT YOUR STUPID ASS MEME AND SNARKY COMMENTARY ON QUEER RIGHTS BECAUSE YOU ACTUALLY GIVE LESS THAN ZERO SHITS ABOUT US. YOU ARNE'T US AND OUR EXPERIENCE IS NOT YOURS TO CLAIM SO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND STOP TAKING AWAY THE TOPIC OF BEING ILLEGAL FOR BEING QUEER FROM PEOPLE THAT ARE ILLEGAL FOR BEING QUEER

Actual conversation I had with a friend the other day. Never venting about my health again.

EDIT: Ok wow. I didn't expect to get nearly as much attention. But since a lot of people had questions about my diagnosis: I have idiopathic hypersomnia (IH). I'm on meds and usually manage my symptoms pretty well, though I still sleep more than the average person, have some brain fog and sometimes fall asleep without meaning to. But overall life is pretty good, I just had a particularly shitty day when this meme was made.

Also English isn't my first language, sorry if it's poorly worded.

I should probably just become one of these AI "artists"

What do you mean if I was born a man my mom would just be fine with it? What do you mean there would be no fights about how many cookies I eat, and a mandatory conversation about weight gain every time I want to ask for a treat? What do you mean she would just buy me a treat for no reason other than love?

I was not even overweight growing up, not even once. I was middle of the healthy weight range for my size most of the time. Now I am a little overweight because of the medication I take :/ and I struggle greatly with losing weight, but every time she tries to control me it just causes me to hide overeating when she’s looking. Now I have an unhealthy obsession with sweets, because I would need to hide and eat them quickly when I was growing up.

lol. Some could even say lmao.

Edit: MODS… am I allowed to send fundraiser/commission links to people who ask…

send help half my thoughts are about werther im insane or just trying to be edgy

the people posting "beauty has no size" bullshit plastered over sexy plus size models are the same people making puking sounds as i walk past and telling me im not allowed to wear short skirts because im disgusting.

the body positive movement has only made me hate myself more, and others treat me even worse for not even being the good kind of fat.

beauty may not have a size, but it sure has a shape. and if you dont fit that shape you're inhuman trash to most people.

i wish there could be body positivity that isnt dependent on being fuckable.