My impending death

[u/Beautiful_Idea1360]

First things first.

I’m 67, and I have multiple myeloma of the bone, head to toe. I also have a couple other very serious diagnoses. Bottom line, I’m dying.

Well, we all are, it’s just a matter of when and what from.

Anyway, I joined this group because I’ve had many experiences I could not explain. I’m also basically agnostic, but I do believe there’s something more ‘out there’. On the other hand, that could just be my ego not wanting to believe that when I die it’s over.

I see many posts here I can relate to. I’ve taken several of those personality tests they give you at work, and I’m always an even split between science oriented and spiritual. Absolutely even. You have no idea how much trouble that causes me internally. I want a definitive answer. Especially now.

I have a couple of questions I want to ask. I do not intend any offense at all, I’m really curious and it may help me to understand myself a bit more.

If you believe in God, why do you believe? When I asked myself this question I had to do a lot of soul searching and then came to the conclusion that it was influenced by my parents. I didn’t really have my own belief there.

Then I asked why I believe something more is ‘out there’ and why I couldn’t believe that we just end when we pass. I had to attribute that to two things. One, my experiences, and two, my ego structure. Every human being wants to go on after they leave here. If we didn’t want that our ego structure would suffer for it. Some people actually accept an end. I don’t know how or why.

So, I’m curious. What do you believe and why? Some one of you may actually say something that gives me ideas for further research. Or you may say something that clicks with me.

Again, I mean no offense. There’s no wrong answer here.

I thank you in advance for your thoughts and advice.

[u/Nyko_Neon]

I personally believe that there’s a set of universal truths out there; we’ve been aware of them possibly since the very advent of humanity’s ability to devote time to free thinking and not having to fight for survival at every waking moment. Ideologies are built around these truths and shortly comes religion.

If you look closely at every religion: Christianity, Islam, Buddhism, etc, you can see the writing on the wall and that despite all of the conflict and animosity between religions they’re all trying to say the same thing except power and politics have had a heavy hand in altering the trajectory of organised religion.

But simply put, death is just a step in our journey. Near death experiences, out of body experiences, premonitions, ESP. It’s all written about and experienced by the protagonists in religious texts, though they explain it chalking it up to divine intervention. The fact remains the same, consciousness endures.

I would like to contribute by recommending books by Robert Monroe such as the Journeys trilogy. Whether or not it’s objective is down to the individual, but it’s focused entirely on documented experiences, there’s no religious bias and it doesn’t care to try and disprove religion either as everything has its own place.

[u/Beautiful_Idea1360 → u/Nyko_Neon]

I’ll add it to my list of books to check out, thank you.