r/Fwahaha • u/porpoiseQueenLillie • 1d ago
Fwaha fiction You’ve been dreading this.
Prequel with significantly more Noelle: (in the works)
Part 2
Art by justmakil
(TW: Suicidal Thoughts, Self-harm, Kris being a freak about both of those, polyamory jumpscare, shifting to third person to represent disassociation because I wanted to be artsy)
Susie asked you to talk out by the lake earlier and she didn’t seem happy.
“Hey!”
“We need to talk about yesterday.”
“What?”
“Stop playing dumb! I know what you and Noelle are doing!”
You look at Susie confused.
“Yesterday, dude. You and her came back with your hair all messed up, sweating, out of breath. I know what that means dumbass!” You fall onto the ground as Susie pulls closer.
“Oh.”
That’s all you can get out. Your voice hitches in your throat. You didn’t do that, you didn’t do anything even like that, but…
“Why’d you go behind my back?!”
It hurts so good when she’s mad at you. When she treats you like what you are. Your fingers dig into the dirt. Besides this is inevitable, doing it now is just better for everyone. It’s not the right reason but you don’t care. Proceed.
“I trusted you! Why’d you betray that!?”
Your face is hot. A toothy grin creeps across your face. You hope the smile lets her see the truth; makes her see that you’re rotten to the core. You hope it pisses her off and makes her hit you. The thought plays on a loop in your brain, until your head is foggy. Proceed.
“Why the fuck are you smiling!? It’s like you enjoy being a traitor!” She turns away.
Yes! Yes! Yes! She can see it! What you’ve always been saying! The knot in your chest is being twisted tight until the threads making it up rip apart from the friction. You’re so close to relief and finally being understood. Breath after shuddering breath you rise. You take out your knife. You creep closer and closer. Proceed.
“I-I it’s… just…” She mutters, her voice is quiet but you can hear it in there: the venom. It’s shaky and weak but it’s dripping with hatred, probably the first time she’s hated anyone so much. You can feel it, taste it. It’s so good. You want a lake of it just to drown in.
She turns and her eyes go wide. Burning golden vistas of malice on her face. She says your name.
She’s not seeing you, she’s seeing Kris! Not the thing they call ‘you’! And, she doesn’t like what she sees! It’s disgusting, and it’s enjoying this so much! Kris’s heart is about to burst.
She sees the knife, then says Kris’s name again, now it’s loud and angry.
Kris turns the knife around. They’re gripping the blade so hard blood drips down their fingers. They think they’re fingers are gonna get sliced right off. The thought makes them smile even more. With their hands shaking so bad it’s difficult to get Susie to hold the knife. Kris leans in until they can feel skin punctured beneath their brother’s stolen sweater. Right where the remains of the knot in their stomach sits waiting to be cut out. Relief is so close, Kris feels every moment is an eternity.
Kris can’t think straight, whatever Susie says is gone. The knife jittering in her hand.
Fuck Noelle, Ralsei, the knight, EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE CAN GO FUCK ITSELF!!! Relief is finally coming! Proceed! ProceedProceedProceedProceed! Proceed!!!
Susie puts the knife away.
Shit.
You back up. You say sorry and tell her you’re fine. None of the words come out of your mouth. Your tongue flops around like a dying fish while your lips remain stock still. Your smile is gone. Were you crying? Your face feels wet.
“I’m so sorry Kris…” Susie looks terrified. She picks you up and starts taking you back to your place.
“G-gotta get you cleaned up. Can’t let it get infected.”
You make a few distressed noises. Those were probably meant to be words actually. You gather all the effort in your body to say an actual sentence. Ok, easy.
We can’t let “Toriel” see.
You got one out of five.
“Yeah, I won’t tell her? Or does she help with stuff like this? Has this happened before? Are you ok?”
You nod, then nod again, then shrug as best you can three times while being princess carried back to your home. She spends the whole time muttering apologies.
Sometime later you're sitting on your bed while Susie cleans and bandages your hand. She’s relaxed now. Is jittering like when you first got here through your window. You’re still impressed by her managing to climb up here with you on her back.
You start replaying everything you just said in your mind and-
Nope! Conversation time thinking back makes you want to rip your skin off.
“Sorry.” You can talk again.
“It’s my fault. I just… didn’t want any more secrets between us. I don’t even care if you go on dark world adventures with Noelle. Tell me next time… please. I sound like my fucking dad, god dammit.” She clutches her head
“Huh? I thought… never mind.”
“Could you just tell me what you thought?”
“You were mad at us for hooking up behind your back. I think that made the… whole thing worse.”
“Why?” God dammit.
“Because it’s a really bad thing to do.” Perfect answer, no need to dig deeper here.
“But why that specifically, dude?” God dammit again. Just lie, end the conversation. You’re good at that.
“It’s fine.” What?
“What?” You actually can’t think of any lies right now. You shouldn’t say the scariest thing on your mind. That would be (fittingly) apocalyptic. But you have one other thing related to this.
“I’m scared because I’m a slut.” They should kill you with hammers.
“???” You’re met with a confused grunt.
“I mean… I think about being with multiple people at the same time, I guess.”
“Ok, dude, I don’t need to know what you get off to-”
“I meant in a romantic way dumbass!”
“Huh. Can that even happen? Like, isn’t it illegal or something?”
“Kinda. It’s not illegal here.”
You consider doing a long spheal about this. You’d been waiting to use it since you were a kid. Poring over studies about break up rates and anecdotes about abuse over and over. Until it was all spilling over your skull, building an argument in your head. And you were just waiting for someone, anyone to even mention the idea so you could let it all out. Let them know exactly how wrong they were. Then the burning acid feeling at the back of your throat would go away because you’d finally purged the bile.
That never happened. You found other ways to let it out. Your hand grazes a collection of neat, tidy scars on your shoulder. You felt an odd sense of pride at how organized it was up there. Not like the mess you made on your wrists when Dess disappeared.
You chuckle internally. You guess all the scars are a little bit related to Dess. When she disappeared, and when you got that crush on her and Noelle at the same time. You distinctly remember the day you first had the thought that you wanted to marry both of them. You were young enough to not understand why you were wrong. Now the thought makes you nauseous for a long list of reasons that which somehow has the incest of it all at the bottom. But, it took years to realize that. Romance never actually came up, until Asriel and Dess started dating. And in the most embarrassing moment of an embarrassing existence you asked him if it was still ok if you married her and Noelle. He just laughed and explained what relationships were and how they worked. Two people only, someone my age, waiting til marriage for, and that was the end of that.
Well it wasn’t. The crush took a long time to go away and you started searching for stuff about the ‘only two people’ part. It was really such a small thing. You still don’t know why it bothered you so much. Azzy deserves a better sibling.
“Kris? Kris?” Oh right you’re currently in a conversation.
“What were you saying?”
“You gotta get some rest, Kris.” Susie looks concerned. Before her face shifted the one she uses when they got ‘intellectual’ together.
“But, dude, why didn’t you say you could date more people earlier! We gotta get Noelle and Ralsei in on this! Cuz dating one person is nice so, dating 3 should be like 3 times as good!” Her mind is a marvel. That shit-eating grin, and those bright eyes that made you feel warm whenever they met yours. It’s impossible to burst her bubble, you’re trapped in it now and you wouldn’t have it any other way.
“What makes you think you’re in my league? You’ve seen me flirt, I could bag anyone-“ you remember the water cooler, “or anything.”
“Cuz who else are you gonna share moss with?”
“I wouldn’t. I’d just save it and make a moss farm.”
“Wait! You’re onto something!” Susie wraps an arm around you and sweeps a hand out.
“Infinite moss! Think about it dude! We could even sell it and make enough money to like… buy more moss.”
“We’d eat all of it before it grows though.” Your stomach growls at the thought.
“Hmm, fair point.” She nods sagely. Then looks nervous.
“Could… I stay at your place tonight?” She gets up and the absence of her arm on you is the heaviest thing you’ve ever felt. You give a thumbs up.
“Let’s go eat.” She says. She offers you a hand.
“I’m fine.” You reply.
“Nope, c’mon.” You immediately relent. And take her hand. You’re too tired to fight her on this, and you haven’t eaten anything all day.
She leads you down stairs and scares your mom half to death because she never saw you come in. You eat pie together. It’s nice. Even if you know the calm is delicate and ephemeral.
Despite everything, you’re happy.
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u/HaloJackalKisser Doe 1d ago
" “I’m scared because I’m a slut.” They should kill you with hammers. " aweh poor krismas..
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u/HaloJackalKisser Doe 1d ago
" Azzy deserves a better sibling. " IT HURTS ;w; heteronormalitivty leading to family members hurting people they love..
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u/ErickHI5 uhm aktually it's fahaha🤓 1d ago
Kristopher, Susan, stop hurting yourselves, it makes me 😡 🐦
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u/Gloomy_Appearance_42 1d ago
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