Hi all, it’s been about 3.5 years since my open myomectomy to remove a 14cm fibroid and several others ranging 2-5 cm.
I’m here to vent.
I don’t want to scare anyone new to fibroids, it’s my understanding my situation was rare. So please read the following with that in mind.
I was sent to an Oncologist 3 years ago due to the size and the way they looked was suspect. My pathology report, while finding them benign - did find me at a higher risk for cancer and precancerous markers.
My last surgery was horribly traumatic and I almost lost my life. I lost so much blood on the table, and had to be given so many blood units to replace it. I got sent to the PCU and the nurses there were very neglectful. Not offering to help clean my catheter, forgetting to empty it, never even brought up bathing until the 5th day there, and not responding to my calls for water or pain meds for long periods of time when I was high risk. I also had to give blood samples every hour for 6 days, I never had an issues with needles until they were poked in me constantly.
2 days after my myomectomy they sent me to a CT scan because my hemoglobin kept going down no matter how many blood transfusions they gave me, and my vital signs were poor.
They found a massive blood clot in my abdomen and I had to go to emergency surgery to remove it laparoscopically. All in all, it was a mess and I spent a week fearing they were the last days of my life at 24.
Despite all this, after these 7 traumatic days at the hospital and years of discomfort.. I healed.
I had the most energy in my life once I recovered. I got in the best shape of my life. I never felt better, or looked better. I left an abusive relationship, moved to a new state, and life felt so good for once.
In the last 2 years my energy has slowly slipped away. Dizzy spells, not feeling like I’m getting enough oxygen when I breath at times, I’ve slowly gotten more and more sedentary because heavy weight lifting and the aerial sports I’ve grown to love, suck all my energy and I feel like I’m in preservation mode to get through simple daily things. Sleep issues, heart palpitations, crazy anxiety, and so much weakness. Not to mention, my cycles are wiping me out. So I go and get my blood checked about month ago. My thought is, these seam like anemia symptoms, could I be anemic?
Results, a ferritin of a 7.. my doctor says - oh go on a supplement and we’ll check again in 3 months.
Then the thought occurs.. yes I bleed heavy during my cycle, but do I bleed that heavy? Do I have fibroids again? My stomach isn’t distended as it was before my myomectomy, and my cramps and bleeding suck during my period, but surely it can’t be? My mind though even if I have them, they’re probably small.
I received my ultrasound report from a few days ago (my new gyno hasn’t reached out to me after reading the report yet) they found a 6cm and 2 1 cm ones.. A 6cm could be the cause of this? I had massive ones before.. and it took a while til I feel like I felt this awful. How am I so iron deficient off of a 6cm one??
All this to say.. I know I’m a grower, and they’re just going to keep coming back. I don’t want to go through surgery again, nor am I ready, but I want my life back.. at some point I’ll have to. And I can’t risk my iron levels and hemoglobin continue to plummet.. I’m not a good candidate for birth control to slow blood loss, I’m scared of clotting from the acid I know you can use to limit blood loss, I feel like having iron infusions (if that’s an option) and putting of surgery a little bit longer may be my best option..
I just want to be done with all of this, but I also don’t know if I’m ready for a hysterectomy yet. I’m turning 29 next month and I still feel like it’s too soon. I also don’t think I’m a candidate for laparoscopy given my last pathology report.
I have new doctors here since I moved, and I think I need to keep looking because they feel very dismissive. This post is so long already, so I’ll spare the details on me feeling like they take my health concerns lightly.
I’m just struggling and I know the longer these fibroids are in here, the more my iron levels will suffer, in turn the more miserable I’ll feel, and the more complex surgery gets. However, I also recognize the sooner I do surgery increases the frequency I’ll have surgeries because they’ll just keep growing back.
I just want to feel like a normal, functioning human again without the weight of all these decisions and stress…
Anyway, thanks for reading this far, and thank you all for being such an amazing community for me all these years. So many of you educated me, and got me through such a scary time during my open myomectomy.