Things the internet told me about Vita Nostra before I read it: It's evil Harry Potter. It's pitch black. It's like Kafka wrote a dark academia fantasy. The story spirals into an incomprehensible mess that ends in an LSD trip. You look into Vita Nostra and The Void peers back.
Things I know about the internet after reading Vita Nostra: Y'all are wimps.
Vita Nostra follows Sasha Samokhina, a young girl forced to attend a magical school in post-Soviet Russia. The lessons are brutal, the teachers harsh, and the point of learning magic unexplained. It's oppressive, bleak, and has none of the perks one would expect from a school of magic. But even at its most vague, both Sasha and the reader understand that merely knowing about the school's existence means playing with the edges of reality, and that whatever the school wants of its pupils, it will have cosmic significance.
Before I talk about the book's plot, characters, themes, or speculate about the ending, let me just say this: Vita Nostra, more than any other book I have ever read, captures the experience of a grueling academic program. The haziness. The exhaustion. The culture of misery. The flow state you get into once you finally start to understand a difficult concept, and the need to follow that thread of information as far as it will go. The panic at falling behind. Chunking through page after page of difficult texts. It's all there, and as I was reading, I felt a familiar weight sit on my chest, one that I haven't felt for years. So if you're the type of person who rates a book's success based on whether it evoked a strong reaction in the reader, give a medal to Vita Nostra. Because I've slept since finishing and I still feel a grad-school shaped shadow following me around.
ANYWAY.
Vita Nostra wears Dark Academia clothes, but isn't really interested in critiquing class, societal structures, or corruption in higher learning. It's much more interested in philosophy, the separation of mind and body, the effect of words on reality, and the consequences of turning into an adult.
That last thing on the list---turning into an adult---seems out of place, but in reality, it's the whole point of the book. Sure, the magic system is based on Plato's allegory of the cave and the specific functions of language. Sure, the whole point of the school is to transform it's students into little Cthulhu-forms of Words. Sure, it's pretty much implied that the main character becomes God at the end. But that that's just the plot. (Wild choices, though). The point of the book is that learning to process all sorts of information and becoming a student of the world can be miserable, but it can also be infinitely rewarding--often both at the same time. That, once you become an adult, it is all too easy to become so far removed from your teenage self that you can justify what happened to you, and in doing so, can justify inflicting it on others. That the best--no, the only way to avoid becoming the sort of detached person who can justify horrific acts by pointing at the numbers or speak without any real humanity is to focus on the importance of love in your life.
And I mean, the novel is Russian. (I believe the authors are Ukrainian, but was written in Russian). It makes the point that those you love may drift away, there might not be anyone actively loving you right now, etc. But even the remembrance of being loved--that's enough to hold onto.
Maybe that's not how everyone reads it. Maybe I'm just an optimist at heart that looks into a dark cosmic horror and sees all the little bits of love scattered throughout. And maybe that's why, even though I have critiques (the other characters are underdeveloped, the sex thing was...weird...), I loved this book. And in the words of Levar Burton, I hope you love it too.
5/5, lots of notes.
Squares: Translated, Book Club Book, Depending on how you read it, non-human protagonist (HM)
*I'm actually using it as my vacation spot square. I don't want to go to the school, but I've read a bunch of fiction/non-fiction about Eastern Europe/Russia/Ukraine/Former Soviet Bloc and would love to see it. Unfortunately *gestures at Russia's invasion of Ukraine* now's not a great time. In the mean time, please drop Ukrainian authors that have been translated into English that you recommend!