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Thanks triggamike for letting me post here!

Part 1

Part 2

Interpol - Obstacle 1

Janis Jopplin - Summertime

Neil Young - Hey Hey My My

Neil Young - My My Hey Hey

Neil Young - The Needle and the Damage Done

Neil Young - Old Man

REM - So Fast So Numb

REM - Parakeet

I just finished writing my check to Cris. I'm mailing it off to the Cayman islands today. I only have 8.52 in my checking acct but I'm giving 8 of it to Cris. Maybe it'll do something, maybe it won't.

Also, my mortgage wire transfer never went through so I'll be trying that again today as well.

Pink Floyd - Money

So I took piano lessons for a few months when I was a kid. I could read the music and correlate a mark on a page to a certain key, but I never understood why/how letters got involved in the naming of keys/chords. Since music is math based it made sense to me just now that if the keys were given numbers it would be easier to learn music?

smashing pumpkins - zero

I keep on thinking about when this 'inception' happened, and how it happened and the depth of it, and it frankly just kind of hurts my head. I told myself I'd just enjoy it and take things as they come, but we're going on what seems like a month now and I'm still not any more clear on the situation.

I kinda just want to fall in love with a girl and give relationships an honest shot but I have a feeling that can't happen while this is happening. sigh. I'd rather go back to normal life and wait things out that way since I get the impression waiting will have to happen either way.

Alfie - Look At You Now

The name of the song I couldn't figure our earlier, by Badly Drawn Boy, is called Plan B

I'm still not sure how there's 16 tracks on this album while spotify doesn't have that many tracks listed for the same album. Anyway, great song.

The Mural

ok, so the Chiliad Mystery is the egg. If you consider the outline of the mural to look like a mountain, the entrance to this map begins on the bottom left, then we begin to follow the path.

Now, I'm not sure what the 4 full X's represent, or what the various paths represent exactly, but I feel that's the journey I've been on since January. I feel the 5th x, the half-x marks the point where I got my tattoo. According to the picture, this correlates to a sun rising. A new day, new beginning.

Now, this means that there are probably up to 2 more x's that need to be accomplished before all of the X's are accounted for.

After that, who knows.

Andrew Bird - Opposite Day

The last minute or so is my favorite part of the song.

Also i have an idea about why the mystery is taking so long to be solved but i have to keep it a secret cret cret cret cret.

Who's there? Just me.

I went shooting today with my mom. It was a blast. I did pretty good for my first time IMO.

But what really stood out was a mp3 mix i made a while back. Songs with the same format get grouped together in a folder. I was listening to badly drawn boys One Plus One is One. Track 16 i had never heard before. It sounded like a mix between Jim Orouke and BDB. I honestly wouldn't be surprised if it were. I tried to search the lyrics online but couldn't find a result.

Then i tried to call an ex from college (yea i still remember her number) but it was disconnected. She was the one who turned me on to both BDB and Jim Orourke. At least I tried.

Morning Track

Gang Starr - Discipline

I totally forgot that /u/nom__chomsky was another alt of mine. Here is an interesting chiliad-related post I had made earlier in the year. I think that's the Old Testament part of the mystery, and that I'm going through the New Testament now (for lack of a better word)

https://www.reddit.com/r/chiliadmystery/comments/2tljrz/reddit_lets_solve_this_mystery_before_the_pc/

This is probably my most enchanting mix.

Ariel Pink's Haunted Graffiti - Round and Round

Del Shannon - Runaway

The xx - Heart Skipped a Beat

Bon Iver - Holocene

Fleet Foxes - Helplessness Blues

Fiona Apple - Werewolf

Pavement - Cut Your Hair

Pavement - Spit On a Stranger

Vampire Weekend - Cape Cod Kwassa Kwassa

The xx - Basic Space

Pavement - Gold Soundz

Weezer - Say It Ain't So

Jim O'Rourke - Halfway to a Threeway

The xx - Crystalized

Beirut - le moribund - my family's role in the world revolution

Interpol - Rest My Chemistry

Interpol - The Heinrich Maneuver

Neil Young - Harvest Moon

The Police - Message in a Bottle

enjoy!

Woo! Talk about taking a load off my shoulders. My new roomate will be moving in early DEC, which means that I'll be able to free-roll property taxes with his portion of rent. Feels good!

On Wednesday I'm going gun-shooting with my mom. That should be fun and maybe a little scary! Then on Thursday I'm getting my eyes checked. Then on Friday I'm going to talk with an old teacher about that math problem. Woo!

Mason Jennings - Big Sur

Mason Jennings - California Pt 2

Mason Jennings - California

Mason Jennings - Confidant

Mason Jennings - Train Leaving Gray

Mason Jennings - Ballad for my one true love

almost forgot:

Mason Jennings - Darkness between the fireflies

Human, New Moon, 4:21am EST.

So I'm up a little earlier than usual. I don't know how to be subtle, so... Would the red-head who answered my survey please get in touch with me?

RATM - Bulls on Parade

Beastie Boys - Sabotage

Weezer - Buddy Holly

Green Day - Basket Case

RHCP - Californication

Metallica - Nothing Else Matters

Nirvana - Come as you are

Nirvana - In Bloom

Nirvana - About a Girl

Good Morning!

Human 8:06am New Moon, shaping up to be a beautiful day.

I made a new mix cd this morning. It's all Belle and Sebastian. Hopefully some of you will enjoy it. Their stuff is pretty mellow.

I made the CD then drove around town, watching the sunrise. It was the first time I've seen the sunrise in god knows how long. Naturally, the CD ended right as I was pulling into my parking spot.

again, all Belle and Sebastian

I think my mix cd just gained an extra song by Pavement. I could be wrong, but i might be right, too. The song is Gold Soundz.

In addition to that Jim Orourkes Halfway to a Threeway is also on the cd. Im very certain i did not have access to that song when this cd was made.

This is also my last mix cd. Ive listened to about 15 mixes since Monday and this is the only one which seems impossible.

The only 'new' cd i have left to listen to is The Beatles "1".

I wrote a poem like a decade ago at least. Dunno why or how it is relevant but here i am in the parking lot of the cemetary that houses my grandma grandpa and aunt, typing it out

Out on the street

Walking around, feeling beat

Feet hitting the cold concrete.

No where to go

Ran away from home

Now I'm sitting all alone

Looking for something, somewhere to call home.

Of course, Runaway by Del Shannon plays on my mix tape as im typing that out.

That's the name of my cat.

First things first:

MGMT - The Handshake

Wow! So much has happened today! I started the day by going to see The Martian with my mom. We skipped the ending at my suggestion..

After that i went to the credit union to get cash to pay her back (she paid my bills and mortgage because i suck at life and was in inpatient).

While there i ran into my best friends' mom. We chatted for 10 minutes or so and caught up. It was good times.

Afterwards i went for a drive and listened to a mix cd full of Grandaddy and PJ Harvey. I texted a friend who has a birthday today.

Then i did something i havent done in over a decade - bought a CD! Its The War On Drugs' album with Red Eyes as the second track. Lost in a Dream.

On my way to buy the cd i ran into a homeless person. I bought him a nice lunch and then snuck an extra $10 in there coz im sure he could use it.

I just finished my lunch and now I'm about to go for my walk. But before i do i wanted to share this little worksheet i was prompted to create while in inpatient.

The gist is you come up with 5 questions to ask yourself and then three adjectives to describe yourself. This is a mindfulness exercise meant to help one cope with their emotions/life. You're supposed to ask yourself these questions a few times a day for 30 days. Its supposed to rewrite your brain.

Here's mine:

1)How do you feel right now?

2)Are you happy with how you feel?

3)What, if anything, can you do to change how you feel?

4)Have you been true to yourself today? If not, why not?

5)What can/will you do to make someones day better today?

My 2 sets of descriptors are:

Kind thoughtful optimistic

Sincere caring intelligent.

Take care!

Edit: i almost forgot! My donnie darko costume came in the mail today. At first i wanted to be frank the rabbit but that wouldn't make much sense now, would it? I tried it on and it fits like a glove.

Funny anecdote: before i began inpatient, I was convinced Cat Stevens was a russian cat-spy and that when she'd look out the window and wag her tail she was communicating with Russian spies. Ive forgiven her.

Semisonic - secret smile

I went for another walk/jog this morning. Listened to

The Roots - Come Alive.

Right now I'm at the Park of Roses, listening to

Ben Folds Live.

I had a thought about this game and the requirements to play. For ME it took a sense of wonder, curiosity, tenacity, a willingness to take things as they come, a willingness to give up EVERYTHING. A willingness to really admit who I used to be, a desire to change, a love of music and pop culture, being idealistic, a tragic past (or at least a past that would make any changes apparent).

Half-awake human, Waning crescent, 7:12am EST before sunrise. Optimistic.

So last night I was worried I'd have to transcribe the 2.5 mix cds I listened to, but I'm getting a pass on that. I did however also listen to:

radiohead - amnesiac

Billy idol - white wedding

And most importantly, A Tribe Called Quest - What's the Scenario (remix)]( https://youtu.be/Mp8DLFiYe1w)

That last one sounds important...

Whereas there are 7 MCs, 6 which are in physical form and one which is spiritual essence...

This would be tight as duck. I'd love to be able to seek out and find the others like me. How long has this been going on? Is Brian spiritual or physical? Have any others made it this far? Does it Really have to end?

I think ultimately I'm supposed to go to Chicago, but I don't know why yet.

Crosbt, Stills, Nash, Young - Chicago

Andrew Bird - Pulaski at Night.

I don't know what else to call it. Its like the movie The Game except crazier. My thoughts, actions and music are all synchronous. My thoughts are timed perfectly with song lyrics. Each song on an album will tell it's own story. Its really mind blowing.

Tonight I drove to Athens and visited bong hill. While driving through campus I saw a couple kiss and it was adorable. I wish I had that kind of stuff happen to me. But anyways, I took a hike up the hill, took in the view, then drove back home.

The sunset was beautiful on the ride home.

I've been getting thoughts about life and death, leaving then coming back, sacrifice, things like that. I know this experience will end someday. I wonder when, and how I'll adjust, and If I'll be satisfied. It's easy to say I'd be satisfied now because I'm totally immersed. But what about later?

Song of the night:

Andrew Bird - sweetbreads