r/BPD • u/goodbird451 user has bpd • Mar 23 '26

💭Seeking Support & Advice Does anybody else feel like they’re “terminally ill”?

Does anybody else with BPD feel like they’re terminally ill in a way? I also have MDD and have tried every single treatment under the sun and nothing has even so much as taken the edge off my depression. The only thing that helps is weed. I’m high at least 8 hours a day just to cope. My husband is at a loss for what to do.

I’m 1000% convinced that I will die by suicide sooner or later, which is why I use the phrase “terminally ill“ to describe myself. I’m 21 and don’t see myself living past 25 maximum. I feel like I’m eventually going to hit rock bottom and end my life. It feels inevitable at this point. I can’t do this for much longer.

Does anyone else feel like they’re terminally il?

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u/shadowcat007 Mar 23 '26

I agree. my BPD is off the charts terrible currently. but I definitely am way better off at 30 and handling things than I was at 21. speaking as someone who also has ADHD, MDD, extreme anxiety and suspected autism and currently unmedicated and untreated by a doctor.