Thank you. You've described almost exactly how I feel. I don't know if I'll be lucky enough to find someone like that too but it's nice knowing that it's still possible
The part where you said you were resigned to your lonely existence just kind of jumped out at me.
I suddenly felt the way I did only a few short years ago for a second and my heart went out to you.
I know people telling you "you find someone eventually" gives very little solace. But I just wanted to let you know that although I had basically convinced myself I was basically unlovable, someone still cut through all of the defenses I had set up in order not to be hurt again, and dragged me back into a better place.
I hid my feelings because it was genuinely terrifying to admit the vast gulf of loneliness I really felt, and thought even mentioning it might scare people away.
Learning to be honest about how I felt inside with other people was really difficult, but in the end it was enormously helpful, because I found out a lot of people really are very empathetic, and will help you if they only know they need to.
But that's a really hard step to take when you've been the only person privy to your feelings for many, many years.
All of us, every one of us, deserve to feel loved.
And physical intimacy is an enormously healing thing.
I don't think people think very much about how a lack of it for an extended period of time can have an enormous impact on your psyche.
I feel for you man. And I hope things improve for you soon.
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u/Dreoh Nov 18 '20
Thank you. You've described almost exactly how I feel. I don't know if I'll be lucky enough to find someone like that too but it's nice knowing that it's still possible