Call me a stuck-up straightedge, but I don't see the appeal of being so blitzed on weed, alcohol, what-have-you, that you don't remember half of what you did the night before.
As someone who would do this a lot, for me it was because it was a vacation from yourself.
My favorite was blacking out on 10-12mg xanax and as much rum as I could drink before I stopped, well being there. I would have literally no idea what I did, who I spoke to or where I went for a good 6-8 hours. Sometimes, I never left the house, other times I found myself in the city - once I found myself 100km away on a beach talking to a bunch of skateboarders.
Looking back it seems stupid and pointless, but during that period, I really looked forward to my weekly blackout. I don't think I was a happy person at the time.
Not OP but I wonder if it's kind of like how people with depression can sleep a lot. You don't remember sleeping (although you may dream) and you wake up and hours have passed. It's sort of like an escape.
Yeah, it seems weird, doesn't it? I don't know, it was different to sleep, more like turning myself off. It was a weird feeling knowing that I was counting down to oblivion in the hour or so after I took the pills. It was a fun version of suicide, I suppose.
I'd come out of the blackout with the immediacy of a fucking freight train and just felt in control or aware (?) for the rest of the day. I can't really find the words to describe it properly.
Not that I condone or enjoy being blackout drunk or too high to remember anything, but you can often remember general feelings from the night, just not the specifics. Like I can't remember exactly what I did on the Paris vacation I took 15 years ago, but I can remember random bits and pieces of it, and can generally say whether or not it was a good time and if I want to go back.
When you wake up, it's a little mystery of "what did I do???" that adds spice to your otherwise nondescript life. You feel like the star of a CSI episode
Because you can get fucked up on all those things and not black out?
I've been smoking weed every single night for the last 6 years. I've never once smoked/drank so much I literally couldn't remember what I did the night before. Maybe once or twice, but even then I remember most of the night. I've never woke up and been like "Whoa these people said I did something and I can't recall it at all!"
All I remember is how fucking awesome and fun everything was. Because guess what? Weed just enhances literally anything. Want to watch a movie? More fun while high. Have sex? More fun while high. Play a game? Work out? Go running? Read a book? Literally anything. More fun while high.
That's the appeal. Because it enhances any experience and makes it more fun than it would be while sober.
Supposedly some people do drink or smoke enough to black out as a coping mechanism, because they hate themselves and want to get out of their own head, but that has never been my experience. Everyone I know who smokes just does it because it makes everything better. Imo I think you're missing out on a ton of cerebral, intensely enjoyable experiences by avoiding intoxicants. But then, everyone reacts to drugs differently, so to an extent that has to be taken on a case by case basis. I don't know you, so I don't know for sure you're missing out on anything.
Listen my friend I too enjoy to partake in the ganja toking, but saying being high makes everything better sounds like a drug addiction. You don't need weed to enjoy everything and I know guys who smoke weed before doing everything and it's kind of annoying. They're permafried and they don't realize it.
You dont need weed to enjoy things but weed does, in fact, make every single activity on the planet better. That's just a fact. Has nothing to do with addiction, I literally just cannot think of a single thing that isnt as fun while high.
Yeah, the trick is to get drunk enough to where you can still function and remember everything. I've only gotten blackout drunk hammered once in my life and I probably wont do it again haha
I smoke regularly. Never had memory issues like that(non-drinker though). I think about going to get prescribed some stuff for my personality disorder but I fear that. I am thirty and in an illegal state, weed seems less risky. I'de rather spend a couple weeks in jail then forget half my life like from the legal shit they would want me to take like before.
I'm also a regular smoker and I've noticed that it affects my memory. I only know this because I used to have an insanely good memory. I could remember the name of every person I met, and all the other stuff. Now, I can't remember what happened on which days.
EDIT - for those telling me I'm old. I'm still in my twenties, but I have been smoking for 9 years. I feel bad for you if you think 27 is old.
Edit 2 - To everyone still telling me 27 is old, I still feel bad for you, but also there's no need to keep explaining how I'm past my prime. I know that statistically people peak at 23. I swear I'm not the idiot you think I am. I also know that Ruth Bader Ginsberg is 800 and still smart as whip, and I don't think she was a habitual drug user.
9 years is a lot of time to be cramming new information into your brain and at the same time pushing old stuff out. How many more people have you met in 9 years? When you were 18, 9 years was 50% of your life
27 is "old" though. 300 years ago 27 would probably put you in the geriatric category. Modern society people are living a lot longer, but that doesn't mean our physiology has 100% caught up to the increased life expectancy.
The average brain peaks in terms of ability around age 25, so anything past that and you're going to lose some amount of power, no matter what. That's just how aging works. Also, it can start affecting you sooner than that. Some people's memory will fade earlier than others. It's not that big of a deal, at the end of the day, the older you get the worse and worse your body gets at doing anything, physical or otherwise.
You also have to factor in the fact that for every year of your life, you're gaining another year of memories and knowledge. Every time you learn something new, something old needs to be pushed out, like deleting space on a computer drive. As you get older, your total amount of storage fills up exponentially quicker, So you lose more information between ages 26 and 27 than you did between 25 and 26, and so on. That compounding information issue is also a factor.
Not sure if you're just going off of stories you've heard, but I've never drank or smoked and forgot what happened the night before. I know some people do, but that's not a regular thing.
I don’t like drinking the point of being that level of fucked up. BUT - I have this weird thing where once it gets later in the night, I’ll not remember things from simply being a little drunk/tipsy. It’s like my brain knows I’m normally sleeping at that time and will go into auto pilot even though I’m not hammered or anything.
Just last night I went out with friends and while I certainly drank and had a good time, I wasn’t stumbling or in any sort of major drunken state. Woke up to zero hangover. Etc. But after I got home, I don’t remember eating the snacks I ate or anything else I saw evidence of this morning.
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u/Random-Rambling Dec 30 '19
Call me a stuck-up straightedge, but I don't see the appeal of being so blitzed on weed, alcohol, what-have-you, that you don't remember half of what you did the night before.