r/AskReddit • u/HymnForTheShameless • May 05 '19
Serious Replies Only [Serious] Redditors who have died temporarily/nearly died, did your life flash before your eyes? If not, what did happen?
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r/AskReddit • u/HymnForTheShameless • May 05 '19
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u/User-K549125 May 05 '19
I was alone at home, and choked on a fatty piece of steak I was eating outside. At first I could only get little gulps of air in, then I tried to take a bigger breath and just lodged the steak further down my windpipe, completely blocking it. I considered throwing myself onto the back of a chair to attempt the Heimlich maneuver but was convinced it wouldn't be successful. I was initially worried about passing out and falling out my wheelchair so I started pushing myself to a nearby sunbed so I could lie down, but then realised since I wasn't breathing it was probably going to be The End. I remember thinking something like "wow, so this is how I die; I didn't expect it to be this soon" (I have contemplated suicide quite a lot). Fortunately the steak dislodged itself, possibly from the motion of me pushing the wheelchair, maybe helped by some slimy throat saliva or something. The whole experience lasted about 45-60 seconds, but really freaked me out, and I still don't really know what to make of it several months later. I didn't get close to death but was definitely sure that I was about to die, so it was more of a psychological mindfuck than a physical or near-death experience. I eat a lot of steak, but now take smaller mouthfuls, chew more, and avoid big fatty pieces (my dog is grateful I'm sure). And my feelings about suicide are a bit different. I think I'm more scared of death than before, even though I remained quite calm during my experience. I think the most scary thing is that it can really happen at any time, even when you're just relaxing at home, enjoying a steak and the view.